One of my poly classmates once explained her cabbing addiction to me. She takes a cab to almost everywhere she goes. Daily trip to school from amk included.
I don't really understand at first. Then there was this once I was on the bus (she took a bus. Miracle.) with her and she explained it to me.
It is always this feeling that she gets. People staring and judging. She feels ugly and wants to get home the quickest way possible to hide from the rest of the world. So that nobody can see her ugliness. And she will feel comfortable in her own space and believes that she's beautiful again. She wants to feel comfortable again in the fastest manner.
Today, I totally understand how she felt. The thought of cabbing crossed my mind. Usually, I wouldn't even have the slightest thought of cabbing. It shows how uncomfortable I feel. Ugly. Tired. It's not helping when I'm hungry yet dare not eat too much. And I feel dirty because I haven't bathed. For a person who can survive a maximum of 3 days without showering, it shows how bad.
But anyway, 170 came before any taxis managed to catch me. Good that I saved some bucks. Just lemme be home quickly 170 please do some magic. I need a long warm shower right now.
Thank goodness this 170 doesn't smell.
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