Too emotionally unstable

Recently, I learned so much from someone. Cars, driving skills, views on money, expressing emotions, looking into my future, purpose on doing some stuffs, and probably gaining exposure to more places in Singapore.

The most important lesson is the way I handled money. I was so hard on myself, wanting to save up as much money as possible, taking up so many part time jobs during my school holidays and even took up shifts the weekend before my examination because everybody was studying and nobody gave their timing. Madness. I remember Jo showed me a video on how happiness can be bought using money. If we were to spend money on other people for social purposes or probably just out of goodwill to help other people, we will feel genuinely happy as compared to just spending on a personal basis. Moreover, when the social life improve, generally, our lives improve and of course when things get better, we will be happy. I think it makes sense.

I used to be so calculative (monetary terms) even with my family members. Whenever I have to use my own money to get stuffs for home or to buy food for anybody at home, I would be very sian. But from Jo, I realised that my family, especially my parents are spending their fortune on me and that little bit of money is really nothing. Spending on our parents is ok because nothing can be compared to what they have invested in me. Now, I feel genuinely happy whenever I am the one footing the bill. But of course, I am not talking about the instalments and the utilities etc... Just the small little amounts we have to spend for our daily lives.

Last Wednesday, Christian asked me to Mambo with him again. It was only the two of us. Initially, I didn't have any mood to go because I love the large company at club and how everybody drink, play games and have loads of fun. But it turned out quite good. It was a peaceful night. We spent most of the time chilling and talking. It's the best ambience to have a good htht. He told me that I pushed myself too hard with all the commitments I have. Really? I don't think so leh. Although I work, go for lessons and netball training, I took those commitments quite easily.

Recently, I said my life is boring and aimless and Ning told me to learn some new skills. It's not like I did not leh. Right now, I'm learning how to teach piano, and I'm going for guitar lesson every week. Okay, thinking of it now, it's really not a lot. Hmmm, probably I should start thinking what do I wanna do. Everybody seems to have something to work for. No more local uni for me, but it's okay that is not the end.