6.8.10

I'm not so noble

Thanks to the radio test where I get to see so many interesting people. There was one who was a super volunteer. She's a mom, very tanned. And she's bald.

I will never dare to shave my head for the community. She did it. Her life was wholly dedicated to volunteering, helping the community. It's when I don't judge people solely on appearance.

There's nothing like "She has a tummy", "Her arms are so flabby", "Why is her legs so skinny" kind of thoughts. People who does beautiful stuffs are beautiful naturally. That's because I know she's doing all these volunteering. What if I met her just on the street! I think I will still be very superficial. That's very sad but it's really quite difficult NOT TO be superficial when I look at strangers.

I watched the TV and I saw the people playing their part to help the poorer community in Nepal. I am really a fortunate soul to have a city life. But everyday, what I'm thinking was "By the end of this month, I must get a XXX certificate." or "By the end of the month, I must learn how to XXX." Everything revolves around myself and myself. Before I decide to do anything(Other than school), I will think of money. Will the skill/experience be helpful in the future? Will the skill make money?

Why do people have different priorities in life? Why some people can just help other people and not themselves? Why some people have the thought of "钱带不进棺材"(Money can't bring into the coffin) so what's the point of making money?

It makes me feel so guilty. When I'm doing volunteering work, I will keep thinking of the day allowance(very little, but still it's money) and the CIP hours(CCA points!!!). I wonder if I will continue to volunteer after I graduate. Even the volunteering work I'm doing is not very helpful to the community. If I had the chance, I will want to experience overseas volunteering one day.

But sadly, I'm still living in a city and wants to quit school so badly when the children in Nepal regard education as a luxury. On top of that, I'm superficial and I love money.
What a disgrace.

5 comments:

Ning said...

You're not as superficial as you think you are lah. If you were that superficial, you won't have this blog entry :-)

C. Yan Jing said...

Sometimes can't help it. I think it's natural for people to be superficial. There's a newspaper article saying that people with attractive looks lose out in some jobs interviews. They don't hire people with good looks. Hahha. Very superficial also.

Amanda said...

哈哈哈 其实很多人都是以样貌去看人的 我不否认第一印象同样对我很重要 只是我们慢慢了解那个人之后 可能就会改观了阿 管他多美/帅 如果个性不好 我们也会渐渐的疏远的吧?Most of us are superficial by nature. But if you are willing to look into people, then you're not superficial already lah ;)

C. Yan Jing said...

Yep i agree. First impression is really very important. And always very different from the real person. That's the case for most people.

Amanda said...

Hahaha sadly right! If everyone were same in and out. But well that's how complex us humans are. Hard to fathom. Thats why some people still can't be understood after tens of years.