The day started with not so great breakfast. It was this deep fried plain pastry thing with honey. Why can't breakfast just be normal breakfast like bread and eggs????! I don't mind plain bread with jam too. Sigh.
We met at 10am in the morning for a discussion on sustainable development. And I won't be having lunch because of a hatchery shift from 12-3pm.
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| Actual : super tanned likka minah |
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| and mtxx saves the day!!!! |
And straight after, there's a beach clean up at 3.30pm. How unlucky. Why must those extra activities be compulsory???! It wouldn't be too nice to work around with for people who work at night. I don't think it's very good welfare there.
I felt really like dying when I was at the beach clean up under that freaking scorching hot sun for almost 2 hours. Nnd. All that perspirations and HUNGER. Hell, I'm not gonna be like this taken for granted anymore. I'm gonna stick to my own plan and make sure that I get adequate sleep and eat appropriately. And dinner was tortilla wrap with cheese that tasted like salty firm tofu or maybe it's just halloumi. When I saw that, in my mind I went, "are you friggin kiddin' me?"
I skipped lunch and maybe you could've used the lunch ingredients for something for dinner???! It's not like I wanna complain.. but we are working outside and we are in a homestay program for a reason right? You only have one job! I can't be bothered anymore so I just stuffed myself full so that I can last through the night patrol.
honestly, I think the "sustainable development" discussion this morning wasn't a thing for me at all. They were discussing so passionately about ecological, social and economic sustainability. And we were asked to choose 10 things to take with us to build a new world which is now a ball of dust. Everything we chose seemed to be the basis of all. Such as livestock, vegetations, water, atmosphere, healthcare, education yada yada.. the discussion led to how our world started to be like this, but eventually people fucked up. (That's a quote. I don't usually swear).
Seriously? I can't even join in the discussion because obviously everyone there is so damn biased. The discussion was really skewed. I didn't like that.
We just want to keep improving to make our lives better right? Even when we are living in such basic conditions (note: not native conditions), and yet we are still complaining and people are still falling sick, we wouldn't want to stay here for long yea?
We can only do our part in terms of recycling reusing and reducing our materials. But in a city where recycled materials or public transport are so expensive, it doesn't help. Because we don't get a better future generation when all we've got is to ruin our present generation.
Maybe I'm a indifferent Singaporean who lives in a small island with tons and tons of tall buildings, where environmental conservation efforts and economic needs couldn't come in agreement with each other. But I think we've done a great job so far with parks, reservoirs and NEWater.
These conversations and discussions are just not for me. Yea they're educational and opens up people's mind. But it's usually heavily skewed.
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Went on a night patrol tonight and we walked the beach for 4 hours, with occasional breaks in between. We only saw one Olive Ridley turtle. It wasn't worth the patrol when the leader just walked so quickly forward that I couldn't even catch up. I don't really care since this is something optional. Seriously, seeing the turtle coming onshore, digging her own nest slowly but steadily, and laying 95 eggs was amazing. But seeing them measuring her shell, and worst of all, tagging the turtle on the flipper by "stapling" the tag into their skin wasn't too pleasant.
Are we really saving wildlife by doing this? It got me into deep thoughts especially so with the sea waves and breeze.. I am so not passionate about it. I am so not in for this. I could do this for a day or two, or even a week. Two weeks down I have to struggle mentally to get myself through. Damn I'll never do this for anytime more than that.
I do not like this project. But I have to keep it to myself. Guess I couldn't get rid of my commercialised mind shaped by a busy city. I'm not doing this anymore. I'm not that noble. It's too much resources for so little results. No gracias.
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