Happy New Year It's 2012!!

Happy New Year everyone!

For this year's countdown party, it's a little different from previous years. I remember it was at Amanda's place, then Ryan's place. This year, it's at Pornboi's place! Hmmm. Kind of unexpected because I don't really know him and didn't really talk to him. But I think I earned myself a new friend.

On New Year's eve, I woke up at 9am, not wanting to waste any bit of the last day in 2011, thinking of making a nice pancake breakfast for my family. But my parents were getting ready to go out for breakfast with my Aunt and cousins. So ohwells, I followed them and ditched my perfect pancake breakfast. Had meepok at the rail mall. Seriously, I don't even know when was the last time I ate meepok. I was really crazy in the past to stop eating all these food. But I guess it's a bliss to be eating without thinking, so that explains my size (hahaha...)

Started preparing to bake chocolate marble cake for the potluck new year countdown party at PB house. But!!! My brother took the remaining cup of milk (for his breakfast). Good job really. So I had to walk to NTUC (at BPP laaa!!!) under the scorching hot sun. Waaaaaa, the thing about festive season is that EVERYWHERE IS CROWDED MAN!!! Go orchard/clarke quay/market/NTUC/walk on the streets ALL POWER PACKED WITH PEOPLE.

The moment I stepped into the NTUC is like a start of a war. Everyone is literally snatching. As Haagen-Dazs was having a promotion, the fridge was terribly raped..

Got home and started baking!! I spent the entire afternoon baking the cake but I brought home almost 3/4 loaf of the cake. Nevermind!!!! I will work harder next time. But I think next time I just buy laaa. Much more convenient and definitely taste better.

Reached PB place at about 8pm and woah, so much food! Gorged myself to death. This year, the countdown gang changed a little. Still as always, with the girls minus Ning, no more Ryan and QQ :( in addition to Bertrand, Yi Kiat and Wee Liat (the BTPS brothers LOL.)

PB asked a good question.

"What is the thing that you regretted the most in the year 2011?" 

I forgot JY's answer because I was too occupied with Amanda's answer! (JY TELL ME AGAIN IRL.)

Alright. For me, 2011 had been a great year. I have seen so much, been through quite some bit, and experienced many different things which I always wanted to try out as a 19-year-old. I wanted to have a breakthrough and get out of my usual life routine. So ta-dah, I saw myself living life in a foreign land for half a year. HALF OF 2011 WAS SPENT IN CHINA.

My internship life in Shanghai was considered calm and peaceful. Office drama mama aside, my life is super healthy considering I sleep before 12 midnight on weekdays and I visit the gym every moment when I am not working. I did not party or explore the town or red light district in Shanghai because honestly, I was too occupied with the shopping... Really freakinggggg cheap cheap chirp chirp shopping... And of course, my best friend, Miss Taobao. (shy) I cannot imagine myself going crazy over shopping because I am not the shopping material in Singapore. Window shopping still okay okay, but serious real-time shopping in Singapore? Sorry ah, cannot afford.

Thanks to China being China, my life in Shanghai revolves around
Work -> Supermarket -> Gym -> Cheap Road -> Taobao -> Cheap Road -> Night Market -> Taobao -> Cheap Road -> TAOBAO+GYM -> TAOBAO+GYM -> TAOBAO+GYM -> TAOBAO+GYM -> TAOBAO+GYM -> ...

Well, you can imagine. But in the end, I realised I didn't fully utilise my time spent in Shanghai. Didn't explore the night life. Didn't go out to meet new people. Didn't even make the effort to go out with my school mates. I'm always at the gym on Friday nights when they meet up for dinner. Hmmmm? Well, I did make a lot of friends at the gym, but hmmmmm.... hahahaha.. I was always on my own. I even went to Jolin's outdoor concert on my own!!!! In fact, two of my school mates from APR (also interning in Shanghai) attended Jolin's concert too... I could've made friends and hang out more often with them, explore more places with them, create more memories in Shanghai. But well, I think that's one of my very huge regret. Sighs. As it is not easy to get the chance to be so free (without having to answer to my parents EVERYDAY), it is definitely not easy to get this chance to be in a foreign land with so many other school mates anymore. Rare opportunity, gone with the winds.

Hm.... But it's ok. I guess this will make a good lesson. I WILL NOT BE SUCH A LOSER ANYMORE.

So, when I came back to Singapore, I started exploring the other side of Singapore. The night life. Parties and dancing and drinking. More and more of these, I met more and more people. I can't say I made a lot of new friends because I don't know if they can be considered my friends? Let's just say, I met a lot of new people, a lot of people who are very different from all the people I knew, or rather, very different from all of my friends.

And from these "new people" I met, I learned a lot, especially the inner thoughts and voices of the people in this realistic world. Always when I get too engrossed with my own life, looking at my schedule every day and night, thinking of fitting my time slot to work the best out of my time, my brain never failed to end up thinking about myself myself myself myself myself. Nothing but myself. During that period of time, I didn't think about the people around me, my family around me, and my friends around me. Never ever thought of their feelings, never ever cared about how are they coping with their lives and never put in the slightest effort to keep up with each others' lives. Not to say that I am capable of doing all these now, but at least now that I'm aware of it, I will try to improve on that area.

There are so many different things out there in the world. I want to see more. It's enough to be a frog in the well for 19 years!!

Yea sure I will be happy to always stay in my comfort zone, be contented and make do with what I have. Repeat my routine and live my life in a safe district. Happy life and die contented without complains.

But no.

I want my life to be full of ups and downs, filled with drama mama moments, armed with swords and daggers. More adventures. More excitement. But of course, always remembering where to draw my line. It's tough, but this is what makes our lives interesting (thus, it's called life right?).

Typing at the very first few hours of the year, I want to embrace 2012, the 20th year of my life. I insist that I am still a youth and so I can childishly say hello to 2012.