Unbelievable

Lying on bed, feeling quite dizzy right now. And I think it's best to blog abt this while I'm still in this floaty state. Alright, I agree that maybe I'm just trying too hard to be a youngster. But at least I know I've tried. It felt great to know yourself more through a sub unconscious mind. I never know I can allow myself to torture myself like this, pushing my limits even when I am already dying from tiredness. Honestly, I'm glad I did because last night was something I wanted to experience long long long time ago. Thanks to Fiona, I've seen another part of SG nightlife and I think I know why my bro clubs almost every week. It's kind of difficult to describe. I'm turning 20 next year so it's considered quite late to experience this I admit. THIS IS SO MUCH FUN what have I been doing?? We are only young once and to think that this is my very last school holiday, I feel a huge need to continue chasing after my last phase of youth. I mean, it's only when you're young that you can tahan not sleeping for the entire night. It's only when I'm young that I can tahan minor neck sprains from serious headbangs, crazy roller coaster rides and bungee jumps. From the bottom of my heart, I am so grateful to my parents who have full trust in me and did not stop me just because I'm a girl. I can't believe I used to think clubbing is such a waste of time and money. This is like spending money on Bishi bashi machines at arcades. People who stood by and look will find it a waste of time and money, but they don't know the amount we gain from it. You will never believe I'm such a person. Even I am surprised to know that I am like this. My friends said that I am quite mysterious, but I believe it's because I don't even know myself very well, so what more you guys out there... You can say that I'm addicted but I know this won't go on forever! I LIKE BEING YOUNG!!!!!!!! good night.