Bad.

20Feb was quite a bad day.

First, I went to Edward's house for visiting. Nobody(in my class) went except for me so I felt kind of weird with him and all his secondary school friends. Luckily after that I don't really care when we started gambling. Won money, then lost some money too. I didn't really count though. But the sad thing is when I was walking to the toilet, I accidentally kicked a bottle of alcohol they were drinking on the ground, BESIDE THE PIANO. Hell. I swear I really didn't see that bottle!! Alcohol on the piano! I was feeling more than guilty, honestly. I don't know how they reacted so calmly to it... That expensive alcohol they bought was spilled! It was wasted! Probably they don't know me, that's why don't really dare to express their anger. That aside, a few thousand worth piano was at stake! Piano can't collect dust, as it will affect the wood quality and eventually affect the sound quality. Piano can't touch water as Wood + Water = Seh Gor (the growth of the white spots on the wood i think it's a kind of fungi?) 

Then what more alcohol? It'd be worse right! I was feeling extremely bad I wanted so much to reverse time. If only I was more careful... If that happened to my piano, I would have cried on the spot, threatening to kill the person who spilled the alcohol. Then, I went for piano lesson, forgetting to take back my oranges and the cute plastic bag.


Piano lesson made my day even worse. Theory homework was pathetic!! 73!! Extremely horrible. Mr Ng was so disappointed. My average score was 82-86 kind, Merit. And the previous one was distinction 92, but I checked on the net for some musical terms. But still, 73 was so bad. I felt like giving up.. Practical was worst! I really need to get motivation.. I really have to regain the determination to practice piano at least 2 hours per day. I was reading my previous xanga journal just now. It was during the horrible O level period + many obstacles with my O level Music Practical pieces. Every arrow shot into me by my classmates and teacher pushed me to practice like crazy. Time constraints and skills constraints. But I managed to pass that period of time, what's with me now? I feel like a total fool and noob. My exam pieces now are about the same level of difficulty and a few are simpler!

I guess, I have to watch Secret / Nodame Cantabile again some time soon. On a side note, Nodame Cantabile's movie is finally coming out on 11 March! It's been so long since I watched a movie without falling asleep. This will definitely be the one hit which will keep me motivated to practice for sure!! I am so sure!

And I know how much I love piano, even though I don't really spend time with it.

& I am sure that
I WILL BE PLAYING PIANO ALL THE WAY TILL THE DAY I AM GONE, EVEN IF MY SKILLS STAY AT THIS LEVEL FOREVER.